The message for today is that anytime you see that the positive thoughts you felt are not manifesting into your life know that what is missing or in lack of is two precious things that without all your thoughts and feelings are like perfume in the wind nothing but a good smell that comes out and fade; those two are faith in God and faith in yourself who is made at the image of God. Without good faith nothing good can come to fruition.
To enhance your faith, instead of meditating which is only used to calm the mind, just utter words of good prayer out to the universe and have faith in your heart that you are being heard all the time any time within the day or the night. Positive prayer with words coming right out of your own heart and brain are the ones that lead to what we call miracles.
It doesnt matter if you think you are worthy of God's unconditional love or not because of sinning, He is always listening in through his guardian angels that each one of us has one standing by his side, whispering in your ears words that lead to good deeds. So pray no matter what is your situation or what is your perspective of yourself, and you will know gradually when u start noticing the change into your life, that there is no reason not to have also faith in yourself; that you are worthy and you deserve his unconditional love all the time.
And in no time you will find yourself increasingly attached to positive praying and enhancing your relationship with God that will also gradually lead you to becoming a better version of who you are.